Today,as K. and I do most Sunday mornings, we went out for breakfast before church.Well I go to church and goes.....well actually I have no idea where he goes.
I AM A SMOKER AND TRYING SUPER HARD TO BE AN X-SMOKER!.It will not be the first I quick but it WILL be the LAST time.Friday I started on a anti-smoking med.Sadly I brought this up at breakfast.I quickly remembered why conversations between hubby and I are often short.:(.....First he stated that only a weakling needs meds to quick smoking......I was good.Did'nt snap back but instead I agreed.Saying you're right I only need prayer and God.And that's when I realized I no longer my husband of 40 yrs.His response was..."we don't need God for anything"!I was crushed,totally speechless,and overcome with grief ! Yes grief for man who has no soul.......Our marriage is over,has been but for many reasons stay in the same house.Actually it's not to bad when he's at work and comes late after spending time with mistress Cathy Ashworth.....but when he's here the verbal abuse is almost overwhelming.But the Lord always grants me a calm to get thru it.I am so praying on what to do.....
Tonight I just feel fed up with people in general.What makes a person deliberately cause pain to someone else?How can lies roll so easily off some peoples tongues?I think it's time for a pity party......
Hope you all have a happy week......karen
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